Timothy is 5.5 weeks old. I look in the mirror and analyze what I see.
While I lost two thirds of the gained weight pretty much right after birth (and no wonder – Timothy alone was one third of the extra weight!), I still have a jelly belly thing going on. It’s not big, not to me in any way in comparison to the huge bump I used to have, but I am still in maternity pants. No pants would close on me.
And I tried a jacket – same thing. Won’t close on me. Furthermore, it’s tight around the upper arms.
So once I am done breastfeeding, I will have some weight-struggle to do…
Throughout the whole pregnancy, I was stretchmark-free. I got some on my boobs now. Just a couple, but they are there. Which reconfirms the hereditary nature of stretchmarks: my sis also has stretchmarks only on her boobs, after two pregnancies.
My boobs are huge and heavy and seem drooping to me. I look at them and wonder what will they look like once the milk is gone.
Linea negra is still there, as vivid and visible as ever. I wonder how long will it take for it to go away.
I got lots of beauty marks or whatever they are during pregnancy – on my belly (quite a few along the linea negra) and on my boobs, primarily. I wonder if they will go away. Most of them are the sticking out kind of beauty marks which makes me thing they are warts or something else. Maybe I should see a dermatologist. I never had spots like this before. Well, I’ve had two since forever, and that’s it.
My hair has started falling out again. It’s weird. I got so used to mess-free bathroom, and it’s my hait everywhere again – in the bathtub, on the sink… everywhere! And from what I heard, it’s only gonna get worse.
My navel is all an innie again, but a HUGE one like a crater. Don’t know if it’ll become smaller again, once the loose skin of my belly (hopefully) tightens up?
The c-section scar is still red red vivid. And it seems that while the scar is just below the hair line, the inner scar is above – that’s where the skin is tender to the touch; that’s where there’s unevenness in the belly outline, sort of a step.
Saddest of all, I got hemor.rhoids. Not from pushing (as I did none) but from all the constipations during pregnancy. So far, I was not lucky dealing with it using a cream. I switched to suppositories. Huh, I am glad that I know so well how to use a suppository after I spent 3 months shoving them up my @ss in the first trimester twice a day, two pills at a time… Now I can do it in no time, with my eyes closed, so to speak.
My face, on the other side, is normal again, not all puffy with a potato of a nose that it used to be in the last months of pregnancy.
And my legs! I was never fond of my legs, but a few days postpartum I looked at my legs while showering and was struck by how thin they are. I mean, I know you retain lots of water during pregnancy and all, but I didn’t realize just how much my legs were swollen. They seemed like sticks to me
And then I realize that heartburn is gone, that I can finally sleep on my belly (well.. not really – now my boobs are in the way),
Best of all, my hormones are restored and I have sexual drive again. Now I only need to wait for this bleeding to FINALLY stop. Argh.
No, actually, best of all is that my body produced a whole new human being, grunting and screeching in his playpen now. In his sleep