Archive | December, 2011

Happy New Year!

31 Dec

Happy New Year everyone!

I am Russian, and for Russians, New Year’s is THE biggest holiday of the year.

However, this year all holidays grow dim in comparison to what we’re expecting to happen in a month or so – including New Year’s. We’re still going to celebrate. We heading out in a couple of hours to our friends’ new place – they planned a bit gathering (there’ll be over a dozen kids!!! that should be interesting…)

Anyway, good-bye 2011. Overall, you were a nice year. Although you started pretty crappily (I was sick as a puppy on the last New Year’s and then I got fired shortly after, and I worried a lot about the IF issues and the new job issues) – you turned out to be really, really good. I found a job I love, I got pregnant, I had some really exciting trips and travels. But pregnancy is THE biggest thing that happened to me. Maybe ever.

I am glad I have this blog. I am glad I have this almost-daily log of everything that this pregnancy has been to me. The fears of the early days, the gradual crossover to bliss and happiness, to – lately – getting tired and ready to meet my baby boy.

2012 – you should be an amazing year. The year my first baby is born.

Although the holiday and celebrations do not overly excite me this year, the prospect of what awaits me next year takes my breath away.

Hurray to the coming 2012!

Happy New Year to all of you!

Pregnancy Weight Gain

30 Dec

My weight gain has reverted. I was almost 75 kg at my last OB appointment – but I was 73 this morning. 2 kg (or about 4 pounds) less.

Yes, at the time of the OB appointment I was badly constipated. Yes, my appetite has decreased, I eat less now – and am trying to watch my carbs intake, like the doctor has suggested.

I hope the decline in weight has nothing to do with the baby. Well, at least I haven’t noticed any changes in his behaviour.

I was about 61 kg when I got pregnant. So if (let’s say) I am 75 kg now, then I gained 14 kg so far (or just a bit over 30 pounds). Which I believe is normal weight gain. With one month left to go, I hope I won’t all of a sudden gain a whole pile…

On a separate note, I was dreaming our baby was born – and for whatever reason he was mixed race – he had black facial features, but very light-skinned. Still dark, but not black. In my dream, my hubby and I were perplexed: yes, we went through fertility treatments, but we didn’t use donor sperm!

But the baby was oh-so-cute. And his hair was golden-brown curls 😉

Braxton Hicks? Dropping?

29 Dec

Less than 40 days to go! 38, in fact. Woah!

I wonder what does it feel when the baby drops? I tried googling this question, but all I could find was forum threads and blog posts. The know-it-all websites like baby center and such are all mysteriously quiet on the subject.

The reason I am wondering is that I have more pressure down below – partially at the front of my belly (especially keen when I stand up after having been seated for a while) and in the rectal area. I am waddling even more and feel much more discomfort in the hip area.

I cannot tell whether the belly looks any lower, though. It doesn’t seem so. But the pressure has definitely increased!

I am 34.5 weeks – so this feels a bit premature (we were told dropping happens 2-4 weeks prior to labour in first time mothers). However, I got a big baby… might he already be ready to get out??

I also think that I am, in fact getting the BH contractions. I thought I am not, but yesterday I placed a hand on my belly and thought: what on earth is THAT?! – so big the hard part of the baby seemed (his bum is much, much smaller). But then I started palpating the belly, trying to investigate what’s going on there and realized the whole uterus was rock-hard. Just as they described it in the prenatal classes. I simply didn’t feel any tightening or anything else of the sort.

Was this a BH contraction? I don’t know. Probably yes – why else would my whole belly go rock-hard? So my uterus has started its training for the Big Day.

That, plus the baby being head down for a while now… who knows when the kid might decide to arrive!

Hmmm. I should go look at myself in the mirror more thoroughly, trying to decide whether the dropping has occurred. Too bad I don’t take weekly belly pics – the last pic I have is 4 weeks old. Cannot credibly compare…

Insomnia Begins?

28 Dec

Woke up at 3:30 am today and couldn’t go back to sleep. I was tossing and turning, my lower back hurts, my neck hurts, my hips hurt. I have 6 pillows (3 normal, 2 couch pillows and 1 breastfeeding pillow) – and I still couldn’t arrange a comfortable position for myself…

I gave up just after 6 am and got up. And now I need to start getting ready to go to work 😦

I hope this is a just a one-off thing and not the beginning of infamous third-trimester insomnia. Unlike some people, I cannot function when severely sleep-deprived (well, certainly can’t work).

What preoccupied me during the three hours of tossing and turning was the nursery and ideas for the custom-built shelves we want there (a contractor will come a give us an estimate tomorrow… we’ll see if we can afford it or just go and buy some ikea stuff).

PS It finally snowed. Not a lot – but it finally feels like winter, for the first time this season!

Busy Bee Mode Continues

27 Dec

Another busy shopping day.

We bought a lamp for the nursery – this one (from Ikea):

We also bought lots of space organizing stuff – now that the nursery is becoming a nursery, we need to find other solutions to store stuff 😉 And a baby video monitor – we’ll have to test it (the previous one we returned the very next day, so crappy it was). Yay for gift cards! Those monitors are expensive.

I am tired now. A whole day of shopping is tough these days.

I can’t quite understand what makes me more or less tired. Yesterday I woke up at 8 am, full of energy (despite going to bed late, after entertaining guests). Today my hubby woke me up after 10 am – and I could hardly open my eyes. Weird.

Anyway… I washed a sports bag yesterday – now I need to go and finish packing my L&D bag.

Oh, I also placed an order for the drapes fabric today. Once it arrives, I will be sewing the drapes myself! My friend lent me her sewing machine. Although I have almost no clue how to use a sewing machine, I am very excited 😉

Now I am starting to wonder what the heck will I be doing once I finish work? My last day is only 3 weeks away. And the nursery is getting pretty ready. Hmm. I guess I will be napping, reading, watching movies 😉

De-Cluttering and Organizing the Nursery-to-Be

26 Dec

I am packing the L&D bag. I just sterilized a pacifier and a feeding bottle – just in case. I packed bra pads and nipple creams and receiving blankets (all laundered, all smelling of babies ;))

I realized I need a central place for all the manuals. Especially if I plan to re-use most of the stuff in the future – whenever we are blessed with another child. Perfect task for my hubby – he likes organizing stuff.

I have TONS of toys already (most are hand-me-downs). Seriously – I think I will ask our friends to NOT give toys to our baby. Ever. I was trying to figure out where to store them all for now – and remembered we have an old laundry hamper in the garage. I gave it a thorough wash – as soon as it dried up, I will drop all the toys in there.

We decided we need to build some shelves in the nursery – to keep boxes with toys, books, etc. We lack storage space ALREADY. I am glad we got so much stuff for free as hand-me-downs, but the amount of stuff is insane. And we don’t have a basement to dump all of this to. We’ll talk to a contractor and see how much what we have in mind will cost.

I am not sure where to keep all the baby bathing paraphernalia. In the bathroom or get a caddy to carry it around?

I am not certain whether the clean baby clothes should be zip-locked, or I am going to far (I am talking about clothes I am packing for the L&D bag, not the ones I keep at home ;)). I also am not sure whether I can just drop diapers in the bag or need a sterile ziploc?

I also need to find a logical place to keep bottle brushes and stuff.

The nursery is starting to look less like a storage space and more like an actual nursery. I need to finish the de-cluttering before the crib arrives, though.

34 Weeks – and Merry Christmas

26 Dec

34 weeks today.

Life is getting harder. Well, heavier. Getting up from the couch is hard, I have to push myself with my arms – or use my hubby’s help. Getting up from bed is even harder. Rolling onto another side is often easier with standing up on all fours then with actual rolling through lying on the back for a second. Getting up the stairs is a chore. Eating leaves me most of the time with an overstuffed feeling – especially on days like today.

Oh yes – Merry Christmas, by the way 😉

Got a very nice xmas present from a friend today – a templated baby’s first year book. It has pages like “the first time you walked was…” or “the first time you ate solids…” – and empty spaces for photos. Very cute.

My hubby got me (among other gifts) a small knitting kit to knit baby booties. Although the instructions turned out to be far more complicated than expected (he assumed it was a beginner’s set – and I haven’t held knitting needles since I was about 13 or so).

Funny. Our baby isn’t even born yet, but he\s already – sort of – getting presents 😉

How fun the next xmas is going to be! He’ll be quite big by the time. Definitely crawling – maybe even walking! Just imagine!

I roasted a chicken today for the first in my life! Not turkey – since there were only 4 meat-eaters among us. I stuffed it with apples and sewed it tightly closed using my curved needle – the one I used to re-upholster the glider 😉 It turned out quite good. I am proud of myself.

I got briefly scared today. Baby was doing some weird twitching and then abruptly went very still. I got this fear that he died in there – I don’t know why. And I massaged my belly, and pressed on his little bum, and tried to find his feet and press – but he remained quiet. I was having an internal fight: to freak out and go to the hospital immediately – or to be rational and stay put. The baby started moving again and all is well. I have no idea why I freaked out all of a sudden…

My mom thinks that I will go in labour earlier than I am supposed to – because of the size of the baby. Well, many people seem to think that. But I haven’t heard of anyone going in labour early because of the size issues. Only having c-sections because of the size issues.


Yesterday was a big laundry day. I washed all baby clothes, towels, bed sheets, etc. I also sorted all the other clothes that we got as gifts or hand-me-downs for older ages and labeled the boxes and put them away. Got my baby cooshie changer today (my friend bought it for me – the store was around the corner from where she lives).

Need to wash hand-me-down toys (most of them cannot be machine-washed, so I’ll have o spend some time wiping them with soap and water). I also need to finally make the decision and choose and order fabrics for the nursery curtains. The crib should arrive in early January.

We are getting closer and closer and closer.

Getting Clumsy

24 Dec

I read about pregnant women getting pregnant brains, getting clumsy, etc. – but haven’t really experienced it. Occasional forgetfulness wasn’t much more than usual. Losing balance or brushing my bump against something happened rarely.

Until today.

First, I was making tea for my hubby and I. He had a bit of a poisoning yesterday, so I was taking care of him, making a good big cup of strong black tea – with sugar. I closed the sugar jar and proceeded to pour the water when something tugged at my sleeve and BAM! – the glass jar ended up on the floor. Huh. Ikea knows what they’re doing, the jar remained intact. Apparently, the edge of my sleeve got caught in the latch and I bushed it off the counter.

Deep breath, on to making breakfast. The water is boiling, I take the egg pack out of the fridge, take an egg in my hand – next moment the egg is on the floor, leaking every which way. I don’t even know how this happened. Can’t I even hold things in my hands any longer?

Deep breath, my hubby wiped the mess… 5 minutes of boiling later, I am taking the pot with the eggs to the sink to pour some cold water over them. I pour the water in the pot, pour it out – and end up pouring it on the partition between the two sinks. The water splashes all over and ends up on the floor. Does EVERYTHING have to end up on the floor today?! Again, my hubby wiped the mess.

Okay, time for breakfast. We are drinking our teas, eating eggs, discussing the book about baby sign language that we bought the other day – when I decide to change my pose and almost knock the whole table off. Tea spilled, I feel mortified. Perhaps I should be fed my my hubby, securely attached to a chair so that I don’t drop, spill, or break anything else?..

Getting Closer to the “We Are Ready!”

23 Dec

Today was a tiresome day. Big grocery shopping – I am having friends over on the 25th. And big baby-related shopping. Hubby is freaking out that there are so many things to be done, so even though there is no real need to buy these things right now, I decided to provide him some relief.

5 hours later – I am home.

Grocery store was a ZOO. Insanity.

And then I went shopping for nursing pads, high-waist cotton panties, buttoned shirts, baby mittens, hypoallergenic laundry detergent, etc.

There are a few items we still need to buy – like a baby video monitor. They’re all ridiculously expensive in Canada (about 40% above the US prices!) and we cannot decide which one to buy. We bought one when we were in states – and we returned it the very next day. The batteries didn’t hold the charge – and all the reviewers online were complaining about the same thing.

I still need to decide which fabrics to order for the nursery curtains – which I will be sewing myself.

I need to do the big laundry and to pack the L&D bag. And then the remaining things will be small ones.

What Is It Like – to Be Someone Else?

22 Dec

We were wondering today – what if we could exchange bodies? Wouldn’t it be cool if my hubby could experience what it feels like – to have a baby inside?  To feel it move and stretch? To sense it startle and hiccup?To know – from the inside – what it feels like when there’s a bump of a heel traveling across your belly?

But then we thought – if this were, indeed, possible – then how do you decide when to stay in your own body? Like – okay, now it’s labour and I’m in pain – can I switch then and get my hubby to spend some time dealing with the pain?

And then he starts pushing and I yell at him: don’t push so hard or you will tear MY perineum!

Hmm, that would be tough. Deciding whose turn it is to experience something unpleasant. Not unlike deciding who’s doing the dishes 😉