Archive | July, 2013


27 Jul

Started having some brown discharge. It was barely there at first and only when I strained. But then there was more. Combined with some lower back and lower abdomen pains. More so on the left.

After 4 days of worrying, I got restless enough that I got my hubby to bring me to the ER at midnight yesterday.

After four hours, I was told that my HCG level is consistent with 8-10 weeks (I am about 7w6d today)  and that I have the pregnancy in the uterus (not ectopic) and there is a heartbeat.

They don’t have internal u/s in ER so I had to go back today for a more thorough u/s.

Which also didn’t reveal anything other than a biggish cyst on the left ovary (which they didn’t even mention – I saw it in the report printout).

They say they aren’t too concerned with brown discharge saying it means old blood which could be anything. Even implantation bleeding leftovers.

What left me deeply dissatisfied with the experience is that they didn’t check my progesterone levels as “that’s not covered under ER services”.

Since with my first pregnancy I was prescribed progesterone suppositories, I now wonder if it’s low again – and that’s what’s causing the brown discharge.

I read tons online – all of it aggravatingly inconclusive. Could be notging, could be everything. I’m a bit less worried now that I know that my baby’s alright – at least for now – but if this brown discharge continues to bother me, I’ll have to think how I can get my progesterone checked, not having a family doctor (and my first gyno appointment is in 2 weeks).

The good thing out of this whole ordeal? This precious baby just got real for me, having seen the heartbeat.

Cling on, my little pea! Ee love you..

My Second Beta Results

12 Jul

No, they didn’t call me. But I was passing by the clinic and decided to pop in and see if the results were back. They were and everything’s progressing nicely. Beta was just above 700 on Friday, and was over 5000 on Wednesday.

Looks like this is really happening!

11 Jul

I keep being forgetful. Bringing Timothy to a doctor’s appointment without shoes – he ran around the waiting room in socks. Left my phone at home today. And hundreds of smaller forgetfulnesses (is there such a word?)

I don’t know how far along I am, exactly, so I decided to designate the date on my own, according to which I am 5w4d right now. I need to establish the count!

My appetite went down dramatically. That’s weird. I don’t remember this happening with Timothy.

And – like with Timothy – I lost interest in sweets. Which sort of sucks. I lost my little indulgence! I don’t know how to treat myself when I feel like I deserve a little something.

I still do not really believe I am pregnant. I am afraid to believe in it. Constant cramps, lower back pains and weird navel pains just add to the worries.

Strangely, at the same time, I literally burst with desire to tell the world I am preggo. So far only hubby, my best friend, and you guys know I’m preggo. My sister is coming to visit for 3 weeks on Tuesday – I’ll tell her then. I am undecided on when to tell the rest. I don’t think I will be waiting until the end of the first trimester, like last time. I guess already having one child makes you slightly less vulnerable to the “what ifs”? I don’t know.

I try to avoid carrying Timothy. I try to eat more fruits. I excluded caffeine. I started taking prenatal vitamins (I hope it’s not too late?). But I still don’t really understand that there’s another Tetyoshka growing inside me.

It’s so different from the first pregnancy, when I was constantly reading everything under the sun. Now it’s more like “oh yeah… I think I am not supposed to eat goat cheese”. Not having actively tried to get pregnant, it’s very strange to actually become pregnant. After all the time and effort that went into Timothy. I wonder at what point I will really grasp it?..

First Beta

10 Jul

Got my first beta results – 700. Which means I was less than 3 weeks after fertilization (if all is well).

Now let’s see… the raw egg yolk thing was around July 15-17 (it actually lasted for 3 days). We had sex on July 15, the first of those three days. I have no idea how much time passes from sex to fertilization. But all in all… I probably was something like 4w5d the day I took blood test.

They sent me for another one, just to make sure the beta is doubling nicely.

The downside is they will call me only if there’s a problem. So if all is well – no call. And I’ll have no idea what my beta was like… And the lab said it takes 3-5 days for the results to arrive at the doctor’s office. So probably next week. Argh.

I still have the crazy urge to pee every morning. I was slightly nauseous for maybe 2 minutes this morning. Which is similar to pregnancy with Timothy – I had a week or two of very mild, barely there nausea.

Looks like we’re having a baby, after all.

It still feel unreal.


5 Jul

I’m going crazy.

About three weeks ago, I suspected I was having an ovulation. I remember my friend describing what it looks like (the cervical fluid) and that it cannot be mistaken. But back then – 2-3 years ago – I simply was not ovulating. So I have never seen it.

After having Timothy, I got my period back in November – and it was all over the board. 3 weeks, 5 weeks, 6 weeks.

So this ‘ovulation’ happened about 3 weeks after my period started (I am not tracking my periods).

And then about a week and a half later I woke up wanting to pee RIGHT NOW. And the following morning. And the following morning. Now let me tell you – I got bladder of steel. I can usually go without peeing for hours. Even being 9 months preggo, I was waking up once – if even that – to go pee.

And then two weeks have passed since the hypothetical ovulation – but the period didn’t come. I got barely-there brownish tint in my fluids, for about 3 days, and some very mild cramping, and that was it.

And then I poured milk in the garbage instead of my cup. And then I poured coffee leftovers in the garbage instead of the sink.

And then I bought a home pregnancy test, almost laughing at myself.

I wasn’t laughing when I saw this:


Now I guess I need to go to the doctor, get a blood test done to confirm this?.. If this is all true, then my kids will be like 2 years and 1 month apart… And I am still on contract at work – no job security… and we’ll need a double stroller… and I will be about 5 months pregnant when we go on vacation with my parents… and… and… and… A thousand thoughts a minute!

I am happy. I am afraid to be happy. I gotta go get the blood test done.