Tag Archives: week 19


10 Sep

Artist Mouse wrote yesterday about her navel disappearence. Granted, she’s like 6 weeks ahead of me – still, today I caught myself doing just that – navel gazing.

And boy, was I surprised!

My navel always used to be really deep and sort of wrinkly on the inside. TMI alert: cleaning the folds of it was one of the greatest pleasures (I am sure some of you go YUUUUUCK!!! oh well… that’s TMI for you LOL)

So today I discovered that my navel got all stretched out, wrinkles smoothed out, navel absolutely clean. The navel “crater” got wide – compared to what it used to be. This is so weird.

All because of you, Artist Mouse πŸ™‚

But seriously, should I be surprised? Look at my belly growth progress at 6, 10, 14, and 18 weeks – it is definitely getting big now, not just bigger

Gift Registry

9 Sep

I am due on Feb. 5th. So baby shower in January is too close. And in December everyone is busy with family and corporate Christmas parties (or holidays season, to be politically correct). And in the end of November we will be busy. Which means… my baby shower is only a couple of months away. What??? TWO MONTHS???

It means I need to get going, and get going soon. I need to provide my friends with the suggested guest list. Um. Some of the people I’d like to invite are still unaware that I am pregnant!

There goes the fb announcement – posted it today. Finally.

It also means I need to register for gifts. So I ran to the toysrus store today and there were so many people despite it being a weekday! All because they have their sales time, like 25-30% off many things. But I got a bag of all kinds of samples, a “nasal aspirator” – you know, that thing that sucks the mucus out of a baby’s nose, a bottle, a pacifier… They gave it to me to make me feel better about the long wait. It worked, I do feel better πŸ™‚ And I just love the amount of baby stuff that started to grow at our house!

Some of the things I added to the registry are final (like a diaper bag, bathtub, and a few other things) – the rest needs revisions. Hopefully I will find out on Wednesday whether we’re expecting a boy or a girl – and then will be able to alter some of the choices. I don’t want everything to be green and yellow!

Finally, and most importantly, I called my ob-gyn’s office on Wednesday to ensure they received the blood and ultrasound test results – in time for my ob-gyn appointment on Monday. The secretary called me back today, and left a voicemail: yes, they received the resultsΒ  – and they’re negative! I am talking about the down-syndrome u/s-and-blood results. Yay! I wish I knew earlier they give away test results over the phone.

Knowing the test results, it was easier to finally “go out of the closet” and post the status update on fb.

Time is flying, pregnancy is so real now – with the baby kicking, the people talking and asking me about the baby, the planning of my sister’s visit in February, the shopping… And I am almost half way through the pregnancy. When did this happen? Next thing I know, I our baby will be 1 year old and it will be time for me to go back to work :)))

Streetcar Seat, Dull Pains, Restless Sleep

8 Sep

Another first! A nice guy gave up his seat for me today on the streetcar!

Granted, I was wearing a floaty top and my lunch was in a “thyme maternity” bag – so he probably didn’t doubt much that I am, in fact, pregnant and not just fat.

Still – it was so, sooooo nice to be acknowledged in this way πŸ˜‰

I now know for sure: my baby LOVES riding the streetcar. I guess it likes the rattling vibrations of it. It always starts kicking in the streetcar. As it does after each meal. So funny.

I got some dull pains on each side of my uterus. Nothing too bad, but I’ll ask my ob-gyn on Monday what these are. While I was still going through the bi-weekly ultrasounds at the fertility clinic, they said that all of my cysts from PCOS were gone – but I wanna make sure they’re gone. And that it’s not them producing the dull pain. Because it sort of hurts where the ovaries are supposed to be. Although I have no idea, truly, where they are right now with my womb bigger than a cantaloup.

For some reason I am waking up really tired lately. My body hurts. My shoulders, my thighs, my hips… I guess sticking to sleeping on the side doesn’t go all that great. And my arm is falling asleep (whichever happens to be under me while I sleep o he side). Oh well. What can you do. 5 more months and I will sleep in whichever position I want. For, like, 40 minutes at a time, ha-ha.

These are the days of our pregnant lives πŸ˜‰

Whose Body Is It Anyway?

7 Sep

I often wondered about the way some pregnant women behave – grabbing their boobs in public while saying they got bigger, sharing their nude pictures, some even going as far as demonstrating their darkened nipples to a roomfull of people.

I understand them now. It’s weird – but when I look in the mirror these days, I don’t quite connect what I’m seeing with the real me. I am not convinced this is my body. Those huge boobs covered in blue veins? Those humongous nipples, darker than what I am used to? This belly?

That’s not me. I love they way it all looks. And I actually do feel this weird desire to show it to someone and say “look, doesn’t this look spectacular??? Isn’t this nature’s most beautiful masterpiece?”

It’s very bizarre. I have never been an exhibitionist – in fact, I used to be painfully shy (no-male-doctors-shy). And I can’t even call it self-loving or whatever. Because it’s not really me I am so enamored with. It’s the pregnant body πŸ™‚

Super-Active Baby

6 Sep

While I’ve been feeling my baby move for a couple of weeks now, today things changed. On my way to work the baby was going craaaa-zy in there (with excitement and joy, I hope), giving me kick after kick after kick… Mmmm… morning calisthenics?

It lasted for about 30 minutes, and then kept happening throughout the day.

We got a feisty baby in there!!!

I almost posted a pregnancy status on fb today, but hesitated for a few seconds and… deleted it. I still don’t feel like sharing it with broader public. Perhaps I will on Monday – when I am supposed to find out the results of our down screening (ultrasound + blood). Perhaps I will next Wednesday when – if we’re lucky – we’ll find out the gender.

I don’t know. I am not ready yet.

But my baby’s excitement – especially after meals – is so endearing πŸ™‚

And this us – me and the baby inside me πŸ™‚ at 18w1d – taking a stroll along lake Ontario.

Cramps. Sore Hips. Heartburn.

6 Sep

I am starting to get leg cramps. Well, so far I had only one, but it’s not nice. I suffered from middle-of-the-night leg cramps a few years back. I don’t know what brought it – but I think extensive flying did. It was bad enough to wake me up a few times a week.

This time it is brought by the pregnancy. My e-newsletter forewarned me that leg cramps might come a-knocking on my door soon – and they did. Gladly, now I know better than to stretch my feet, pointing toes ballet-style – that makes the pain really bad. You have to pull your toes towards you – that should relieve the cramps.

My hips started getting sore in the morning. Whether the bones started moving already, or it’s just from sleeping on the side all the time – I am not sure. But they ache and hurt. A bit, it doesn’t really bother me.

Heartburns started plaguing me lately. I am not used to having heartburns – I only ever had them if I happened to fall asleep right after a large meal. Which didn’t occur often. So this one is weird for me.

My e-newsletters keep mentioning backaches – well, these haven’t manifested themselves. Not yet, in any case.

My hubby laughs at how fascinated I seem to be with finding yet another pregnant ache or pain or discomfort. And I am. I am pregnant, and I am ecstatic whenever a new pain or ache appears. Somehow it makes the experience more real πŸ™‚ I listen to my body, I look at myself in the mirror, I am constantly seeking yet another change, another sign of pregnancy. I feel proud to have pregnant leg cramps :)))

Pregnancy Art. Double Suspension

5 Sep

Another illustration from my pregnancy artbook. I drew this 3 or 4 weeks ago. I guess I am already dreaming of my Caribbean vacation πŸ™‚

Hmm. It’s been a couple of weeks since I added anything in there…

Pregnant Belly at 18 Weeks

5 Sep

my pregnant belly bump at 18 weeksHere’s the most recent photo of my preggo bump.

It’s not too too big – but it definitely is a pregnant bump. I used to be slim-slim-slim in the waist region (never in my butt region, though).

And my appetite these day is cra-zy. I can snack all day – unless I pack a really, REALLY big meal into myself – then I can go for a few hours.

I crave hot-dogs and perogies most of the time and I eat tons of peaches and berries. And for the past few days – nutella.

I now sleep on my side with a pillow under my belly and between my knees – otherwise my belly sort of gets pulled by gravity towards the mattress in a most uncomfortable way. So we sleep side by side, my baby and I: me on the mattress, my baby on a pillow in front of me πŸ™‚

Switching sides in the middle of the night is a chore. And not because of the pillow – but because I have to tip-toe around the round ligaments. I have no interest in twisting them and suffering from pain for the rest of the night. Same goes for waking up to pee – I now push myself upright with my arms and elbows without using stomach muscles.

No stretchmarks so far. I keep moisturizing my skin religiously. And my heredity is good.

The digestive system definitely slowed down :/

But all these are just little pains and groans that I wanna document – for my friends once they get pregnant. For myself – when I will hopefully be waiting for my #2…

All in all, life is grand πŸ™‚

Felt the Kick on the Outside!

4 Sep

I just felt the baby kick with my hand! It started to kick, I placed my hand on that spot and baby kicked my palm! Woo-hoo, and they say my partner won’t be able to join for another few weeks! Well, he might not feel it, I guess. It’s hard to be next to me at the right moment.

And I just shared the news with him and he was all confused: what do you mean you felt the kick on the outside?

He didn’t seem excited.


Well, I am excited!

18 weeks. Strollers. Baby stuff

4 Sep

Time has definitely started to fly. 18 weeks already! And I am starting to feel the pressure: time to start if not buying, then at least choosing baby stuff.

We went to a store in the north of Toronto (dear born baby) that was recommended to me as the one featuring a wide choice of strollers. The store was very, VERY cramped. Half of the strollers were on the upper shelf (how on earth is a pregnant woman supposed to get them from there???). The sales people would help for a minute or two and then lose interest and excuse themselves to never come back.

I have never felt so stupid. I would pull out a stroller, trying to figure out how to recline the seat, how to remove the car seat, how to extend the handle, how to fold a stroller. If you have never done this – it is not easy to figure out! After fighting with one stroller, I asked a sales person for help. She seemed very confused by my question: she said: is there something wrong with the stroller? – and reclined the seat. It seems she couldn’t even imagine someone wouldn’t know how to recline it.

There were way too many people for a very cramped space. I do not recommend that store.

We left in very low spirits. On our way home we stopped at our friend’s house and got a play pen, a swing, a nursing pillow, and a safety gate. SoΒ  now we have even more baby stuff!

This improved our mood. Somewhat.

Then we went to Ikea to look at cribs. I don’t know what’s the deal here, bu all the stores have these MASSIVE cribs that seem to be designed to withhold a baby elephant. They are like armoirs, huge and shiny. I remember my own crib – white and simple and lightweight – and that’s what I have in mind for my baby. Ikea has just that! Simply white cribs. And -bonus! – they are really inexpensive. Something like 80 bucks. And the front wall is removable and the mattress levels is adjustable (2 positions). I would only go look for a mattress elsewhere. Theirs are too soft – that’s dangerous. Baby mattress should be really firm.

Today we went to toys’r’us. They also have lots of strollers, FAR more space to try every stroller, fold it, unfold it, try and walk it. We became pros today and figuring out all the secret mechanisms. We liked one stroller: Graco quattro tour deluxe. It’s big, sturdy, I can fold it (and unfold it) with one hand, it has a newborn carseat that goes with it, its seat is removable (for washing), it’s almost fully reclining, it has one handlebar (which makes it more maneuverable than two “umbrella handles”), you can reach into the basker under the seat even when the seat is fully reclined, wheels are large enough to go in the snow. And it has pretty patterns, which is also important, right?

We didn’t buy it (I decided to read online reviews and do price comparisons), but I feel much, MUCH better having chosen at least one candidate πŸ™‚ And online reviews are pretty good. The only downside is its weight (26 pounds) and width – hard to maneuver in tight spaces. But we live in the city, so I don’t see myself taking car trips all that often, and we have only one doorstep outside, so I won’t be lifting it all that much. I expect I will be strolling around the neighbourhood, going for walks, jumping into stores to buy eggs or milk, and going for walks in the park – we live on lake Ontario, there’s a nice park with marina there.

Finally, I got myself a maternity support belt. The sales person at toys’r’us didn’t even seem to know what I was talking about – but I found a couple there, neither of which I liked. Then I went to Thyme Maternity – and got a nice one, almost half the price of what I saw at TRU. As I right this, I have it wrapped around me. Somehow it makes the baby kicks feel much more pronounced πŸ™‚

I feel much better now. Carseat, stroller, and crib are the biggest purchases – and I at least have made some decisions πŸ™‚